Dear Kima, 


I think it was Célia who first told me about you in 2016. She gave me my intro to all things skyrunning; she talks quickly and often on the assumption that I know exactly what she is talking about. Sometimes I couldn’t tell if it was my tenuous grip on the French language or my limited knowledge of the world of running, but I’d find myself nodding and smiling, not fully following.  But Kima was a word that stuck out because it came up again and again. It was mentioned with reverence in her voice and in the same breath as the names of famous runners even I had heard of. She hadn’t been yet, but Kima, now that was the real deal. 

Black Diamond Presents: La Gara with Hillary Gerardi
Video: Julen Elorza

In 2018, when Brad and I drove into Val Masino from the low, flat basin, almost zipping past the little sign pointing up the hill, we wound our little van up switchbacks that seemed to lead nowhere. I wanted to get eyes on the mountains and craned my neck until we hit one last hairpin turn and the steep walls of the valley started to open just wide enough for houses and a narrow street where a banner hung announcing “Trofeo Kima.”  

Black Diamond athlete Hillary Gerardi takes in the view while inspecting the race course.

My heart stuttered and I made us stop to take a photo. It felt like I had entered the arena. Imposing cliffs all around us, the competitors assembled, and I felt like I barely knew what I was doing. But I ached to get out there to see what the hype was all about, and to see if I could make it around the course. If I had dared to dream of winning, I’d have said it would be a dream come true. But instead, I just felt overwhelmed and lucky to have been able to hang on for dear life until the finish. I was physically and emotionally empty from a roller coaster of a race, while somehow feeling so totally full my heart could bust open. It was the only race that year that Brad had been able to come to, and he said it was the only race he could see himself doing. He saw what I saw: a course of rocks that spoke our language, chains that rewarded you for climbing, of towering spires and majestic amphitheaters that had the heart of an Alpine community. 

I went back to Val Masino time and time again, almost as a pilgrimage, until 2022 when I was finally pretty sure you’d be back, too. Kima, you served as a beacon: for months, you gave me motivation for my workouts. You encouraged me to go out in the mountains, in the real mountains and off the trail, seeking out the terrain with big granite blocks to leap across and to haul myself up and over. In a dry, heatwave summer, while my home mountains were crumbling beneath a scorching sun, the stadium where you reside gave me hope for enduring beauty in post-glacial landscapes. 

Still, in August, while winding up the road that I’d come to know well, I felt all the insecurities return. All of the preparation I could do I had already done, and the only thing left to do was execute, but wasn’t it better to rest on my laurels as the former champ and let someone else become theregina? In 2018, you’d helped me come into my own as a runner, but I was scared to let you down, scared that people would see that our connection was more fleeting than it had appeared. But I also knew I owed it to you to try and that in return, you’d force me to live, at least from your start line to your finish, entirely in the present. 

The fluttering of my heart and sweating palms contrasting to the bite of cold morning air

The pop of the starting gun and the rhythmic footfall as hundreds of runners

A cacophony of clapping and voices echoing “Brava! Brava! Dai! Allé allé!”

The loud in and out of breaths trying to find a rhythm  

The rushing of water from snowmelt, making its way down the hillside 

The crunching of gravel beneath each deliberate step 

The clinking of chains and grunting with each overhand haul  

A radio crackling; rescue teams call from one col to another with a progress report

The thunk of a falling rock and a shout of “Sasso!”

The voices echoing out from a distance–an improbable spectator far from any trailhead 

The grinding of sand on granite; grinding over rocks on the moraine

The whistle of wind over a notch in the rocks

The desperate search for the next blaze in a sea of granite blocks 

A quick suck of air as a foot misses its mark

The deafening thump of a pounding heart. Gulping breaths and screaming muscles

A silent dialogue in my head of opposing opinions–no I can’t; yes you can

A riot inside contrasted with the silence of the hills

Voices becoming audible 

The clang of pot lids, wielded by San Marino’s retirees 

The echo of the announcer, words indistinguishable but telling you it's time to drain the reserve tank


Black Diamond athlete Hillary Gerardi running across a skyline ridge line.

Kima, I can no longer say I’m inexperienced. I can no longer even claim that I’m “not really a runner,” but I can say that it has taken me a long time to identify as such. And in some ways, I’m still deciding about what kind of runner I want to be. But I know one thing for sure. When those questions and doubts come around, ​​I can point to you and know that I’m home. Kima, you’ve let me feel like me in a way that most running never has. You’ve helped me identify the runner I aspire to be. A runner that inhabits the world between the earth and the sky, scales the slopes, pushes so hard they feel the taste of blood in their mouth, and skips across jumbles of blocks all while feeling awe at having the privilege to follow the footsteps of those that first drew the line across jaw dropping landscapes.

 A runner that dares to run the risk of failure but will give it all that she’s got for a chance to add her name to the legacy.  


Hillary Gerardi